CT Results! God Answers!

Waiting is the absolute hardest. Even though I’ve been going through health struggles for years now and have had innumerable tests, the waiting still get’s to me. I’m still anxious, don’t sleep well and run short on patience with my family.

I had my CT on July 9th but my oncologist appointment wasn’t until July 16th, a telahealth appointment at the cancer center. Just as I was finishing up breakfast, on the 16th, the phone rang, one of the cancer center nurses calling to let me know that the oncologist had a personal family emergency and had to cancel all of his appointments. My heart sank, tears flowed, no answers today. He would try and make phone calls over the next couple of days.

Thankfully later the next day one of my GP’s, that takes extremely good care of me at the cancer center, called to give me the results. My CT looked great! Some of the nodules from my April CT are smaller and some have completely disappeared. There is still some shadowing but it does not look like there is any metestatic cancer in my lungs. Everything else also looks good. Stable, no changes. This was a huge, honestly unexpected, answer to prayer. I was totally expecting the worst and God gave a blessed gift. The gift of life, of time with my beautiful family.

The oncologist called, later Friday evening while we were camping to confirm my results and that we would continue with my current treatment as it appears to still be working. My cancer marker in my bloodwork, showing active cancer throughout the body is only 6.9! Anything below 30 is good! We’ll do another CT in a couple of months to confirm what’s happening.

With this darkness lifted, it brings relief. I’m not feeling the impending doom I was feeling. Not feeling like each special moment may be my last.

John 1:5 NLT
[5] The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness can never extinguish it.

https://bible.com/bible/116/jhn.1.5.NLT

Being completely honest, I carry some guilt too. Will I continue to be a burden on my family? Are they as tired of dealing with my disease and inabilities as I am? Would life be easier with my passing?

Psalms 139:12 NLT
[12] but even in darkness I cannot hide from you. To you the night shines as bright as day. Darkness and light are the same to you.

https://bible.com/bible/116/psa.139.12.NLT

Not only are the physical struggles of chronic illness very real, the mental struggles are also. Beyond thankful for the Lord and His never ending mercies.

Life continues as we try our best to keep life as normal as possible for our children. This has included camping several times already, celebrating birthdays together. Still can’t believe our youngest baby boy is now 16yrs old and can drive. Vacation bible school, beach day, 4-H activities, enjoying our greenhouse goodies and LOTS of hours in the pool.

Psalms 23:6 NLT
[6] Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me all the days of my life, and I will live in the house of the Lord forever.

https://bible.com/bible/116/psa.23.6.NLT

Thank you to everyone that is/has prayed for us, God is listening. If you could keep us in prayer for strength and endurance in this marathon we would be so grateful.